I need to write more! Life is crazy
First of all, I started a painting projectin my room. I wanted to paint the walls grey and yellow. I bought all the paint and supplies and I began painting (without telling mom of course). When she found out we got into it and I left the house. I stayed with Alex and Dave for a few days. Finally I apologized for saying shut up and calling her a psycho. I really don't regret what I said, but I had to apologize just to make my life less awkward.
Next order of business is Dylan. I have three words for him: what the fuck. So after the whole "I love you" incident, we talked normal for like two days and then he never responded to my text. I texted two days later and again five days later. I haven't heard anything. I am hurt because I don't even get an explanation. I have no clue what I did. I can tell he's ignoring me because he's been snap chatting other girls and posting on Facebook. Oh well. I was too good for him anyway (and we both knew it).
So I literally have a texting/snapchat stalker. His name is Vince and I don't know how to get rid of him. He's so damn annoying. He is ugly and works for a cleaning company. So he's basically a maid. He's obsessed with me. I tried to tell him I'm not interested, but he can't take a hint. He doesn't even have a car. He wants us to go on a date, but I have to pick him up. Ummm, yeah that's not happening. I need to stop replying but I don't want to do what Dylan did to me. I really need to get on the ball with this one so he doesn't get anymore weird.
I've also been talking to Chris from Toby Keith's. He's such a sweetheart! He is 24. We went on our first date last weekend in downtown La Grange. It was a lot of fun! We ended up talking for four hours. I felt completely comfortable with him and he seemed really honest and genuine. Hopefully he's not too nice. He did kids me at the end of the date. I was a little surprised bc I thought he'd be too shy! Somehow he did it. I was really happy he did! I am glad that I meet him. It seems rare to find a good guy these days. We'll see where things go with him. I'm thinking I'll continue to see him and talk to him.
Nick's still been begging me to be his girlfriend. Ha...NEVER going to happen.
So that's all the normal stuff going on in my life. Now comes the crazy part. I've had so many people from my past contacting me lately. It's so strange. It's like all at once people are deciding to add me back in their lives. It's been a very interesting week...
The first person I heard from was Tanya. It was super random. She just randomly texted me and we've been talking ever since. She lives in Georgia for the military. She's still married to Mike and claims things are going really well for them. In a few months, she's moving to Germany for three years. I'm planning on visiting her next summer if she's still there. I really don't want to have to deal with asshole Mike though. I get such a bad vibe from him. It'd be worth it to travel Europe with my best friend though!
The next random person to text me is Lee from Bar Louie. That was a total shocker. He seemed to remember every little detail about me! I took Chloe out to dinner last Friday and while we were sitting down, my phone started ringing. It was a random number. Usually I don't answer those kind of calls, but this time I did. The voice on the phone asked if it was Christi Helm. I made him tell me his name first and when he said Lee I was super surprised. We talked for about 10 minutes and then said we would hang out. I'm glad I got to hear from him. He always said he liked me, but I thought he said that to everyone. From the phone call though, I think he might have actually liked me. Weird. Especially because I was pregnant when I first started working at Bar Louie, but no one knew.
Next comes Mike. I went on a few dates with him in April and May. He seemed nice but he was a little weird. I just remember after we went on a date to Giordano's, we kissed and I swear he was patting himself on the back when he was walking away. That freaked me out. He randomly stopped texting me. I wasn't heartbroken because of the back patting incident. So I forgot about him. However, he randomly texted me this week. He apologized for not responding before. Apparently he slept with a girl before we started talking and he found out she's pregnant. He tried to work it out with her but it didn't work out. I'm torn as to whether or not to hang out with him again. On one hand, I don't want to get caught up in all his drama and I wasn't super attached to him after the first few dates. On the other hand, I don't want to not talk to him just because he's having a baby. I think it would be very hypocritical of me. I guess we'll just have to see what happens.
The next person I heard from is Jon. We met online and we were talking for a long time. I stopped talking to him because I was scared to meet up with him. I saw his profile on a dating website and messaged him with my number. About 2 weeks after I sent the message he texted me. It was weird to hear from him, but I think we should finally meet after all this time.
The most shocking part about the whole situation is who texted me yesterday. I got a text yesterday that said, "Talk?" I immediately knew who it was. I responded by saying, "About what?" We ended up talking. He wanted me to come over. I was hesitant. He didn't treat me very good before and with the whole thing that happened with Jackie, I really didn't want to get involved again. At the same time, I really did love Tyler. He always seemed different. And I was always completely mesmerized by him. I was also scared because I felt like I could be being set up. I felt like Jackie was going to be there or something. I did want an explanation though. I think I deserved it. So, I drove the 43.5 miles to Tyler's house. When I got there I was still nervous. I felt like it was going to be so awkward. When I finally saw Tyler I couldn't be mad at him. I have so many feelings for him (even though I don't love him anymore. I'll have to re-fall in love with him). We went up to his apartment. I had Chloe with me. Of course Chloe woke up when we were walking up to his apartment. She ended up being up the entire time. It was so frustrating because we didn't get to talk about much. He's so confusing. I don't know what he wants from us. He won't tell me and he keeps asking me. I do miss him and I could certainly see something long term with him, but I don't want to be treated the way I was before. There were always excuses and he was constantly blowing me off. I don't know what to say about that besides I'm way too good to be treated that way.
I need to play the Tyler situation well, because I need to show that I am a strong independent woman and that I don't need him. I don't want to come off as needy or desperate. I think I'm completely opposite of that. I really need a plan before we talk/hang out more. I did end up hugging him. He didn't try to kiss me. I wish he did though!
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